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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Nov 24, 2011 18:06:24 GMT -5
%5B3%5D.jpg) spring to l i f e stella marie brexton-sans, was more than happy that today was a saturday. the girl was pretty key eye when it came to her studies so she didn't go about getting wild on school nights or anything of that effect. yeah, most would call her a little nerd, and in fact she was. she embraced it when it came from herself or her sister sadie, but given someone else called her a nerd and it was in a pessimistic manner, well stella didn't know how to take that. the girl was kind of a silent soul for the most part unless he got to know you. though it was fooling much like her father cody james, the girl got most of her personality from the guy and her intelligence as well, but her mama summer was a pretty bright person as well. daddy isaac though he was the one that attempted to make the strong molds, but beyond family stella was just here at the inside pool today to swim instead of work and she was excited, because she hadn't been swimming in some time and it was winter and the pool was heated! how more exciting could this get? it was small probably for most people at this place with their money and the fact they were high class white trash in her opinion, but to her she was more than excited. the girl set down her stuff off to the side nice and neatly.
the girl then took her shirt and looked about nervously just to be sure. she wasn't insecure about her body image or anything, but she just tended to be nervous when it came to taking off her clothes and other people seeing her half naked? though she was at a public school pool so she half expected it. she then took off her shorts and flip flops and folded them up neatly. there was no one there yet, well that met the eye and she let herself relax. the girl pulled her blonde hair up into a small pony tail and she went over to where it was safe. she let herself get a little speed and then pulled her legs up mid air. "cannon ball!" she called out and then she hit the water a splash being made of course when her body hit the water.
the small girl swam back up and smiled to herself as she cleared the hair that fell into her face out of the way. bangs in a ponytail well you had hair down sometimes. that was a rush and she sense seeing the pool had wanted to do that. she swam over to the shallow end and stood up. then she heard a door shut and she looked around looking as if she was slightly paranoid, but she was merely curious and slightly paranoid maybe..."who goes there?!" she questioned to see if she could get a response.
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Nov 26, 2011 23:31:04 GMT -5
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though the girl was very happy it was saturday, she was a bit sad because she wanted her best friend. though she wasn't exactly sure where serenity was and if she was busy. well lari didn't want to be a bother so instead she sat in her room and painted her sadness. biting her lip she ripped it up and threw it away. the picture was ugly and she hated it, because looking at it she had to admit that her sadness was real. she liked pretending it didn't exist until it was too late and it took over. standing up, on the verge of tears, she decided the pool could be fun. people went there because it was indoors. that sounded like the best plan, where she wouldn't have to be alone with her thoughts.
she slid on her one piece, because she felt like she was too ugly for a two piece and slide over her jeans and one of her marilyn manson shirts before sliding on her nearest flip flops and grabbing her keys she ventured out of her very lonely room. her thoughts were still spinning around her head as she walked slowly to the pool. they were around her sister and how she wanted to go see her. yeah it was weird but lari felt like maybe her sister felt bad for hurting her. she was really the only one lari wanted to tell about her feelings of sadness. she didn't really know the woman but only she could tell lari it wasn't really her fault. that would be the only thing to really cheer her up but she knew sammie and jinxx wouldn't like it any if they found out and she didn't want to upset them. they could hate her a lot and not want her anymore. they really only knew her two years, they couldn't really love her. right? no..they couldn't.
finally she made it to the pool and opened the door, letting it close behind her she heard someone yelling cannon ball then someone asking who goes there. she kind of froze, afraid the person didn't want her here. she really had no place to go, and she looked down at the ground and continued walking towards a pool chair but turned to the person in the pool. "i can leave if you want to be alone," she said giving a smile. she would, even if it would hurt her she'd do anything for someone else.
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Nov 27, 2011 21:02:12 GMT -5
spring to l i f e
stella marie, was kind of amused by her own splash she had seen water on the side and well she thought it was funny and she began kind of talking to herself before asking who goes there. ”gee you nearly cleared the pool out of water” she joked it being something she would have said to sadie or sadie to her. the sisters were best friends and that was great, because usually siblings kind of were at throat and throat. cody james and isaac mason got lucky having the girls they did and well stella felt lucky to have the parents she had. she was grateful for summer carrying her for her father, because he wanted a child and he couldn’t have one with the person he loved, but in the sense he did have a kid with zac and she did the same for zac she was a good person despite her trouble with drugs. she kind of found pregnancy to be a blessing form what stella understood cause it helped her kick her addiction. stella had been lucky she didn’t inherit her drug addiction, but she wasn’t afraid to have fun!
there were more innocent means of fun like swimming and that was what she wanted to be doing right about now which was why she was here. at her who goes here she ended up looking around to spot a pretty girl in jeans and a marilyn manson shirt. the girl grinned being that she didn’t recognize her to be some mean girl or anything she experienced on chat. the girl then said she would leave if she wanted and stella giggled. ”now why would you leave silly?” she asked moving to the edge kind of pulling herself up her head resting on her arms. ”this pool feels amazing” she said as if it were some factual thing and in a tone like you need to experience this. stella pushed off the wall and slumped down. ”i won’t watch you strip if you’re coming in” she joked as you could see her head kind of peer up as if she was peeking and again you could hear the girl giggle.
stella let herself fall back into the warm water it making a sound as if she had fell backwards in from the edge. she let herself float as she waited for company to strip and get in the pool really not one to be pervy to someone she didn’t know. surely, though she was just really shy in the reality of it and she wasn’t going to be a peeping tom even if her name was nowhere near tom’s damn name. the water in her midst felt nice surrounding her and she shut her eyes relaxing and kind of happy that she was going to have a girl as company. she seemed nice being that she’d leave if she asked, but then timid all the same time from the small time she had glanced over her but stell wasn’t one to judge a book by its cover so...
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Dec 2, 2011 12:11:07 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] larissa alvey sometimes i feel i've got to run away - - - - - - - - - - - - - - larissa kind of stood there for a minute, looking at the ground wondering if the girl was one of those mean ones. the one's who liked to be left alone and didn't like being bothered. usually pissing in everyones cheerios. of course stella wasn't like this but lariss a didn't know this. the when she asked her why she would leave she couldn't help but smile and feel like a moron. "oh. well if you wanted to be alone i wouldn't have minded leaving." yeah she kind of thought it was a bit dumb and she laughed a little. mostly at herself because she knew she could take things in odd ways and twist it and turn it around. the who goes there made larissa feel like she wasn't expecting anyone. which would be normal because not many people thought about someone else coming to the pool. but the blonde felt that it meant she didn't want anyone and she was willing to leave. but now she knew better though she was still a bit nervous.
she did how ever feel a bit better when the girl said she wouldn't watch her strip. usually larissa wouldn't care if someone watched her take off her clothing at the pool. the blonde wasn't shy about showing off her body, especially in some of the outfits she wore as long as her scars across her stomach and the few on her upper thigh. she didn't cut often so they weren't usually a problem concealing. only when she got really really upset and there hasn't been but one time this school year when that happened. and it was the day everyone was talking about family and she started to think about her own and then her sister and how it was all fucked up. serenity seemed busy so she sat in her room just sad and confused before finally giving in and cutting into her upper thigh to make the images go away. images of the constant fires that happened, the screams of the one's she loved and cherished. she had to get them out of her head and she did and she felt better. now she felt nervous, because she didn't like people seeing them.
she pulled her top off then walked to the edge of the pool and slide her pants off and quickly got into the water. the good thing about the pool, was that they would be hidden and that was all that mattered. feeling better already she let a smile appear on her lips, she could do her pretending now. it was easier without worry clogging her mind and just the fear and sadness. those she could hide very well. "hello," she said, since she didn't give a proper hi before hand or really anything. "the pool does feel good," she said just because it was the truth before sinking lower into the water.
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Dec 11, 2011 3:17:48 GMT -5
spring to l i f e stella marie brexton-sans, was a total sweetheart! a complete geek from time to time, but her daddy and dad loved her and that was all that mattered to her for the most part. she loved people but se could be shy. the blonde figure was staring at the ground like she was sad and it instantly pained stella to see this. she liked making people happy! her smile was pretty! she took note of that and she listened to her words. ”no no stay i can beg” she pointed out jokingly she didn’t know the girl but she was already joking to beg her to stay even though she hadn’t asked her to leave. people didn’t expect company at the pool but it happened it was a boarding school full of multiple students and even if she hadn’t invited anyone she wasn’t going to be like no stop hold your stuff and get out it wasn’t like her. stella was too sweet for that even if she didn’t like someone she’d suck it up. though she couldn’t help but secretly admire the pretty girl. maybe she’d make a new friend today!
stella had been on chat a couple times and well she attended all of her classes and she hadn’t seen larissa had she? she wasn’t sure, but she was thinking of it as she was floating. no she hadn’t seen her or stella would be secretly crushing on her already just because of looks and the fact that she came off as timid was just too cute. stella was such a dork when she saw someone she was interested in she had those mental pictures and well she began wail her arms around a bit lost in thought she came up red. she looked about she didn’t see her in the pool yet so she was safe. she sank down emeberassed. that’d be cool just drown in thought” she said talking to herself like most sane people do even though they claim not to. the blonde blew bubbles in the water trying to relax a little hoping that larissa didn’t notice that! she’d forever be self-conscious about the matter! ”who does that?” she asked herself and did a face palm.
the girl looked over to note that she was now in the pool which meant she needed to stop talking to herself like some weird. she brought her mouth above water again stopping her blowing of the bubbles. ”hey” she said sweetly with a giggle looking like a girl that had been told to stop blowing bubbles in her milk or else her dad was going to take the straw. probably a weird thought but it was her guess. ”very nice” she commented enjoying the warmth of the water surrounding her. ”im stella” she said looking at her hands to see which one was less pruiny looking? she pruined easily. she settled and left it out for her to shake. yeah completely dorky, but maybe the girl wouldn’t notice? she hoped she wouldn’t.
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Dec 17, 2011 10:25:32 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] larissa alvey sometimes i feel i've got to run away - - - - - - - - - - - - - - larissa could not help but blush a little when the girl said she could beg. she didn't want to anger the girl by leaving, or do something to upset anyone. so she stayed and nodded her head at her. she wasn't used to all of this attention. if anything only her family tried to get her to stay and not hide out in her room. jinxx would persuade her with hot cocoa and alice would be right there doing the same. she loved them, she really did, but she tried so hard not to get close, to not hurt them. oh the girl was failing miserably. she loved all her new family. jinxx, sammie, alice, cc, rayne, serenity, raylyn, carson, james, ian, alliya, aaron, britt. she loved them all and there was just no getting around that anymore. even alliya she loved like her cousin, though she could be mean to people and it made her sad inside. she still would love the girl and she couldn't wait to see them all away from here. away from school on christmas, just being.
christmas had became larissa's favorite holiday in the last two years because her uncle c would throw huge parties. okay so they were rather small parties with only family. there was james, carson, alliya, ian, skye, marie, jinxx, sammie, her and alice. of course cc, rayne, sere and ray were there, but it was their party after all. she liked having an intimate group of friends and family. they would stay in their pajamas and drink hot cocoa and open their presents. usually the parents got dressed but the kids would usually cook and eat in their pajamas because that was the fun of christmas. not worrying about what you looked like and jinxx and sammie got the girls new pajamas every year and let them open that on christmas eve so they can wear it to bed. was it bad that lisa still got excited over pajamas? no because she needed something to make her feel like she fit into this new family when she just felt like such an outsider. all of them if adopted were adopted at a young age, and others born into it. she however only entered two years ago. who wouldn't feel insecure around such a happy already bonded family?
lisa didn't notice stella almost drown and i she did, she would have jumped in and tried to help her. that was lisa, always trying to help someone in need. she also didn't notice that stella began to talk to herself, or she heard something but wasn't comprehending it. she let it float out of her head because it was normal for people to talk to themselves at a pool and she didn't want to ease drop in on her. ease-dropping was just plain rude and larissa tried her best not to be rude when she could. sometimes she would do it on accident but always apologized. she nodded and smiled when the girl also commented on the water before looking at her hand and taking it. she wasn't used to shaking hands, normally people said 'hi i'm blah' and ended it at that. yeah lisa never really had many friendly conversations with people because they ended so quickly because she didn't want to get close and hurt anyone. now she could get close, but still that fear her sister will get out and hurt people. she couldn't make it go away. but did murderers get out of prison? she had like five life sentences but it still worried her every day. "i'm larissa. it's nice to meet you," she said with a smile. deciding that she'll try to get to know someone at this school that wasn't serenity, ray and alice. "how are you?" yeah the blonde settled on something normal, because she really wasn't any good at conversation.
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Dec 18, 2011 10:31:54 GMT -5
spring to l i f e stella marie was not aware that she had made the blonde girl in front of her blush, because well it wasn’t her direction. the girl was honestly a sweetheart and a total geek at heart. she was only being herself and she would never in fact ask even the meanest person to leave a public area, because it wasn’t hers and there was no reserve! she was excited nonetheless that someone as nice...well she was judging a book by its cover and she shouldn’t but it was directly positive so that was a good thing. she liked a good book. anyways. she was happy and suddenly more energetic than before that she had company. energetic in the sense she was hyperish? stella...was a dork she clung mostly to her sister sadie and well it would be nice to get to know someone else at riverside. given that this girl even planned on talking...she could be here for a nice and relaxing swim in which stel would not wish to intrude on. plus christmas wasn’t too far down the line in their future and well she wanted to be able to say she knew somebody else! that was cheesy she knew plent of people...this was just like a cute little calling and her mind was going completely spacey on her. which was often anyways...stella thought a lot more than she spoke. yea she was one of those silly people, but people tended not to have complaints. well that she knew of. a smile was stufk on her face as her fingers traced over the water still not watching larissa. giving her respect as she stayed lost in thought.
the seventeen year old had no clue that larissa was a hawthorne baby! she would have been excited to know this though because well even if she was adopted all the same...stella was half adopted and she’d make a cute little deal out of it. well not excessively annoying, but yeah. both of them would be in maine for christmas though at seperate locations. unless of course they were having christmas at mama summer’s house or something to that effect because she lived in boston now. it was so confusing! though she knew why her mother did it. she couldn’t stand to be away from her babies and states away would drive her insane. though had stella found out about larissa being parented by jinxx and sammie she would have been puzzled. she would have heard of them but it was pry one or two of the people she didn’t meet? daddy was pretty well known, but dad much like her was kind of a quiet soul..well she wasn’t completely quiet, but she was more like her dad than her daddy. she had a mix of her mama in there, but she kind of was more not mockingly so, but an imitation. she admired her dad! though she admired her daddy too. brains were kind of a big thing in the brexton-sans home.
lisa didn't notice stella almost drown and i she did, she would have jumped in and tried to help her. that was lisa, always trying to help someone in need. she also didn't notice that stella began to talk to herself, or she heard something but wasn't comprehending it. she let it float out of her head because it was normal for people to talk to themselves at a pool and she didn't want to ease drop in on her. ease-dropping was just plain rude and larissa tried her best not to be rude when she could. sometimes she would do it on accident but always apologized. she nodded and smiled when the girl also commented on the water before looking at her hand and taking it. she wasn't used to shaking hands, normally people said 'hi i'm blah' and ended it at that. yeah lisa never really had many friendly conversations with people because they ended so quickly because she didn't want to get close and hurt anyone. now she could get close, but still that fear her sister will get out and hurt people. she couldn't make it go away. but did murderers get out of prison? she had like five life sentences but it still worried her every day. "i'm larissa. it's nice to meet you," she said with a smile. deciding that she'll try to get to know someone at this school that wasn't serenity, ray and alice. "how are you?" yeah the blonde settled on something normal, because she really wasn't any good at conversation.
drowning was no bueno, but she was glad she hadn’t got caught well, because she would have felt extremely embarrassed. yeah hey i was uh picturing you in my head and i kind of drowned. that would go over well! she’d be a flippin’ tomato. it would look worse than someone with a really bad sunburn! when stella got red...she got red! then talking to herself? yeah...stella was on a weirdo roll today! she’d get a award or something she was sure for making herself look like a complete freak... she smiled when the girl introduced herself ”its nice to meet you to pretty” yeah it took her a moment to register what she had just said. this was one of those face palm moments and then she did get red and kind of sunk down a bit. ”...i mean” she bit her lip. she wanted to disappear! ”it’s nice to meet you larissa” she said finally kind of silently making out the words. then she asked her how she was. ”im uh good you?” she asked nervously.
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Dec 26, 2011 10:35:54 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] larissa alvey sometimes i feel i've got to run away - - - - - - - - - - - - - - larissa was very pessimistic about a lot of things because she had to think of the bad. she had to be prepared for the worst that could happen. if she wasn't then how would she handle herself in that situation? she was prepared every time she left her room for someone to see a cut, for someone to make fun of her, for someone to pick a fight. always ready, always on edge and she couldn't help it. she didn't want to hurt people, it was why she tried her hardest not to make friends but the girl just loved people and it was so hard to turn them down. she hadn't always been like this. it wasn't till her last family died that she lost all inability to think positive. she had lots of friends, was happy as happy can be. but now? now she was sad inside. hurt. confused. it was all just way too much for the lovely larissa and she hated hurting people and that is what she did. and she was afraid it will all just happen again. if her family died this time, she wouldn't be able to live because her new family was happy as happy can be and she loved them with all her heart.
another thing was the girl was easily flustered, and that was always so. if someone said something nice to her, she didn't like taking the compliment. usually she just blushed and remained silent and tried to forget any of that ever happened because it was weird. compliments were always really strange and she didn't get why people said them all the time. of course to be nice and tell people you care but why her? she wasn't beautiful or pretty or sweet or caring. she wasn't any of that, so why did people tell her these lies? you would think they'd want to tell her the truth because the lies only really made it worse. after awhile, she kind f became use to tuning out compliments so they wouldn't bother her and make her turn into a giant red tomato.
so being called pretty wasn't something larissa was really used to and she kind of blushed again, because if anything only jinxx had ever really called her pretty. not even her old family really called her pretty, then again if they did she never heard. why? because lisa always tried to stay to herself, even back then. though it didn't work because they were now dead and she was with jinxx and sammie and alice. but when stella changed it and got rid of the pretty, well that made more sense and she nodded a bit. though when stella asked her the same question, lisa bit her lip. she didn't know how to respond to that because she wasn't sure what the answer was. was she good? or was she bad? right now she was okay, but before? who knew what the right answer to this question was but she didn't want to be wrong either. "i've been better," she said softly, finally deciding on what was a better answer. though this answer could get questions asked but she could avoid those? or so she hoped, as she sat in the pool, looking over at the other girl. who was really pretty now that larissa actually took a chance to look at her and she kind of looked away and blushed again.
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Jan 5, 2012 1:15:38 GMT -5
spring to l i f e the blonde in her midst would be fooling because she would see her as happy, but it was all a faced? miss stella marie would not see passed it unless she slipped up and gave her a sign of her being well pessimistic? she wouldn’t really understand it unless of course she heard the story. the story would make her head kind of spin, because well while both no all three of her parents attended hawthorne academy for troubled teens, she couldn’t fathom the pain and thought that one must have when it came to fearing her friends may get hurt, but then in that instant she’d kind of use her friends and family as a support system? that was pry hard for the teen girl and stel wouldn’t have to face it, but it was kind of a fucked up reality. she was truly blessed for her family. she had dad who was cody james sans originally of arizona. he was intelligent and loving! then she had daddy who was isaac mason brexton of london. he was intelligent, loving, and hard? then she had mama summer, who was her biological mother, but well she didn’t raise her only when it came to having explain girly things such as a period, sex, bra’s, yeah that was when zac and cj kind of stepped back and let her have the reigns it all worked out though and well she did count her blessings. she got her big heart from all of her parents and well larissa would eventually take a big hold on that heart.
stella was a nerd....in and out she didn’t care and that was her compliment she got. she loved to read and be absorbed in that and really she didn’t go out and go crazy like sadie did. crazy sadie lady...yeah stel was the mellow twin. yeah okay she wasn’t a twin she was seventeen and sadie was eighteen, but well stella admired her older sister. they were best friends and a lot of outgoing things that stella accomplished revolved around sadie being there and well sadie was always there. they were like a good pair and she didn’t like to share, but then she liked that they could be their own people. sure sadie had to share her too so it was only fair really that the two teens kind of well go about their own ways. though next year at riverside the blonde would be lost without her sister. even if they weren’t around one another twenty-four seven the girls shared a dorm room and they had always lived together. well minus when sadie was a freshmen. that was a hard time for stella. she honestly didn’t want to think about it.
the blush was cute and well she smiled underwater hoping that would be okay and larissa wouldn’t get upset at her for it, because honestly the girl had slipped up and said hi pretty im stella and it was an accident and well...she changed it and got rid of the pretty compliment, but that didn’t mean she meant it. stuff that spewed or slipped out when talking was usually proven ninety-nine percent of time to be fact according to stella theory and well the blonde liked to think her theories were dead on. who wouldn’t? she resonded that she’d been better and stel bit her lip. well, that wasn’t good was it, but everyone had at one previous point in their lives had in fact been better or liked to think they had been anyways. she could ask a million questions if she wanted to but she wouldn’t because she was too kind if she wanted to elaborate she would have. they were new to each other yet. she wanted to make a friend not be a bother. ”well, nothing like relaxing in warm water and watching stella here become a pruin to make you maybe feel better if that statement is implying you are um sad about something or down?” her inner nerd coming out and she over did the sentence a bit, but well it was a joke to maybe get a smile and cheer her up. stella pruned easily. stella noticed the second blush but kind of didn’t want to call her on it? that’d be rude. instead she sank underwater for a second and said. she’s pretty” once again but it came up as bubbles and then she reemerged.
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Jan 10, 2012 11:12:58 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] larissa alvey sometimes i feel i've got to run away - - - - - - - - - - - - - - larissa really didn't mean to seem two-faced in a way but she just didn't want people to worry about her. it would be bad enough when her little sister tells her dad that she cuts. well it wouldn't be that bad because jinxx would understand and just talk to her and tell her everything would be okay. well guess what? it wasn't okay. it would never be okay. she would nod and tell her dad that she wouldn't do it but yes she would because everything was just too much to handle sometimes. it wasn't something she could help, she didn't want to feel like this. she just wanted to be happy. not sad. she really wished that her sister didn't do all of this to her but in time she'd realize that if it didn't happen she wouldn't be with jinxx, sammie and alice and she wouldn't know stella. but that wasn't now and that wouldn't be for a long long while. right now she was sad and tired of everything.
the fact that stella was a nerd would never really bother larissa but she would actually think it was cute and would soon try to use her nerdy expertise on trying to figure out who keeps leaving the blonde notes. of course larissa wouldn't realize it was stella but if she would pay closer attention to the things said and done during the times they were together, but that wasn't how lisa wasn't. she didn't pay attention to these kinds of things usually, and so it would come as a complete surprise. but it would be a good surprise of course.
now larissa would come to be a bit jealous of stella and sadie's relationship because she wanted something like that. yeah she and alice were close and she loved the girl with all she could but she had always wanted that with her older sister. she would continue to want that because who wouldn't? when a girl you never knew hurt you so much and you find out who she is. that she's supposed to be that person you go to when your confused. when your having boy trouble, or in larissa's case girl trouble. how would you feel? you would be sad and confused too. you would long for something new but never be able to get it because your sister was completely nutso and there just was no getting over that. so instead she would make sure to give alice that. to be there for alice like an older sister should be. yeah that was what larissa was going to make sure she did.
larissa couldn't help but laugh at the words that the girl had said and she smiled. it wasn't that she was exactly sad but that she had really been better. a long time ago before all of this had happened to her, she had been a happy soul. honestly. she would just be herself and happy and play games with her nana. she could remember those times. nana was killed. everyone larissa got close to died. her birth parents? dead. her grandma? dead. her first adoptive family? dead. her girlfriend? dead. everyone died, it was horrid but she was with some nice people and her sister was in jail. but she could get out? right? probably not but larissa only thought of the ifs and the whens. when she got out sammie, alice and jinxx would be dead. maybe even serenity. maybe even raylyn and rayne and christian. a lot of people would be dead. and she couldn't handle that. ""no..not sad. not exactly. just i've been better" she didn't really know what to say to this so she just looked at the ground.
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Jan 12, 2012 3:32:58 GMT -5
spring to l i f e
the girl, did not seem two faced to stella, but then again she was kind of too friendly for her own good sometimes. though larissa was not negative in that sense. the girl was just well she had a lot on her plate throughout her life time. stella did not know any of that yet and nor would she try and pry her way into larissa’s life she was going to gradually cruise on into her life. get to know her person become her friend, hang out with her...she didn’t know that larissa didn’t like letting people in because she had fears, but stella well she would not take no for an answer? it would be where she put forth being stubborn. it was something she got from her mama summer, because well that was how she was. though she just met larissa! thus far the details of stella were a red face, jumbled words, and not being able to be able to help but think the girl here was really pretty!
being a nerd was something that happened throughout her whole life. she always loved learning and education and her favorite subject in particular was history. it was something her dad kind of laid on her. he was a really smart guy or man and wanted the best for stella as far as education which was why of course she was here. though she did like fun as well. she’d even use it in the future to leave lisa surprise notes. well be her secret admirer mostly because one stella was kind of nervous or would be because lisa was kind of quiet, but then not so much.
the bond the two had was just from being everywhere together and stella’s obsession with her older sibling. she loved her to death. she would feel bad if se found out about larissa’s older sibling, but she well she couldn’t help but admire sadie. she was so funny, caring, and smart. not many people saw the side. stella was lucky to have an older sister she knew this much. she was also lucky for summer...because of that reason. some people didn’t get that and larissa was one of those people. though....stella would never give her any trouble she didn’t like the drama. she didn’t like to be confused herself so hopefully larissa wouldn’t feel confused ever excepted for when she secretly admired her.
the laugh and the smile were right on aim. she definitely hit the bulls eye with the pruin thing because it made her smile. stella for the win! she felt accomplished for the time being. she stared at her fingers for a second when she made them come up from the water. ”nope not yet” she said smiling. that was a relief she was not ready to look like a little old lady just yet. she was cool with her youth?! yeah if you saw it that way and she did. ”Okay good I’m glad you’re not exactly sad” she said smiling at her because that was good right? Yeah, she figured it could be worse the way larissa said it. ”been better...well i suppose that makes sense..” she said biting her lip. at some point everyone had better moments in life. ”so, you like swimming or just relaxing in the pool?” she asked to make conversation and see.
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Jan 15, 2012 12:17:28 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] larissa alvey sometimes i feel i've got to run away - - - - - - - - - - - - - - if larissa wanted to or knew how she would have to admit she was pretty. well if she wasn't herself and saw herself walking down the street, those words would cross her mind at some point. but she was herself and she just didn't see the beauty that her father and it seemed this girl stella, were letting known to her. she wasn't pretty, she was average. she had average hair. it was long, pale blonde and her eyes were a shinning blue. okay so that wasn't average at all, and she herself was far from average. she died her hair constantly and loved to blare some marilyn manson all over the place. what could she say? she was obsessed. though she listened to other things but they were also kind of strange too. there was a florida band called cruxshadows that were good, alice cooper and a finish band named nightwish.
she liked to talk about things when it came to certain things and it all really depended on the day and how she felt. stella would be one of those few people she would open up to and converse with. her, and her sister and her cousin raylyn as well as sasha. her best friend from her old home. those were her three friends and the three she would come to rely on in this school. she would have no clue how to handle the things here without them by her side. she would protect her cousin as much as she could because ray would come to hide in her room quite a bit because it was right across the hall.
some would think that larissa was just a stick in the mud because she kind of kept to herself most of the time but she was just a confused girl. she had a sense of humor and she had the ability to laugh and smile and she loved to do so when it was possible but sometimes her depression was so much. hormones acted up all the time, things were just always so crazy with the teenage blonde girl. she laughed again when stella said not yet, "well thats good i think." yeah she was already relaxing and that was good. she was calm and kind of happy. this girl was funny and sweet and well she couldn't help but be okay now. plus the water was relaxing her and she felt a lot better. she wasn't even thinking about her older sister or the deaths she caused.
she nodded when the girl said it was good she wasn't exactly sad and it was the truth. she wasn't sad and she wasn't really sad anymore either. "yeah," was all she really had to say to everything else the girl sad. that was until she asked a question. she wasn't really much of a swimmer, not having a proper teacher. she was more of the float and relax type. "i find the water a good place to relax and think," she admitted with a small smile. "do you swim or relax?"
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Jan 18, 2012 18:53:07 GMT -5
spring to l i f e stella marie, had to admit compared to the girl in front of her she was kind of average. her dyed blonde hair was kind of well at some points frizzy and unappealing to her sure, everyone had some sort of insecurities, but well stella didn’t let hers show. the girl in front of her was pretty though and it well it didn’t seem like she let it take a big affect on her. in her opinion she was lucky to have such looks? if stella looked like that she wouldn’t be in a pool right now she’s be in her room all conceited like possibly allowing herself to have fun with herself...that was pervy, but that was what stella would do given a day in larissa’s body. though stella did that sometimes to...but that was weird thinking and she kind of snapped out of it because she wasn’t attempting to be a perv right now.
in time when stella got to know her more she’d talk more which would be great because stella already liked her in that she was in the pool and being nice to her. stella liked nice people. lisa would be one person she’d kind of swoon over and enjoy talking to. she seemed sweet right now and well would grow only to be sweeter in the future so...stella finding a friend in her and more would be great. she’d be the person besides her sisters and brother she’d come to trust a lot with even her heart...at some point. she’d make this school bearable when sadie ended up leaving her...well right now she didn’t know she was a senior...but still.
miss brexton-sans, didn’t know larissa all that much too think she was a stick in te mud or to herself. she didn’t even know she was depressed! the girl in front of her was laughing a bit and smiling and well she couldn’t help but do the same and be happy she was the cause of it in a positive way. a lot of times people laughed at her not with her. that much kind of sucked! ”it is” she said nodding a little bit. ”...pruning like a little old lady is no fun not that i have anything against older woman..they’re badasses at one point in life or another.” yeah that seemed like good stella logic. everyone grew old and had their highlights though that much were true not every one person understood those highlights but oh well. ”im going to be a badass old lady who races wheel chairs and stuff life goal” she joked but it would be fun and funny and stella would pry end up doing so when she was old cause well when she had a goal little or small she liked to accomplish it.
again stella smiled when she just agreed with her. being sad wasn’t cool and if she saw someone sad she attempted to cheer them up! then she watched her ponder on the question for a moment before answering. ”it is a really nice place to relax i agree” she said and bit her lip then she twisted the question back around on her. ”I like relaxing and swimming it depends on my mood...today i am zen.” she said with a smile. Yeah, sure she was zen alright...whatever. She was also completely weird and hope that didn’t creep Lisa out.
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Post by larissa katherine alvey on Jan 20, 2012 10:48:27 GMT -5
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stella would become a person she could talk to without feeling like she was burdening her. she would be able to relax and be the old larissa, the actually happy smiling larissa. the one hardly seen anymore except around her family. she was just glad she could be happy with someone else, that meant there was hope. hope she could be normal again and not be such a big worrywart who was afraid for the people around her. with stella, she just kind of forgot about her sister and relaxed. or well she would come to do that soon, at the moment? she was just in a pool with a stranger and talking. there was no harm in that. her sister didn't kill strangers only the people lisa came to love and cherish. she was jealous girl and it was sad to be the reason all your loved one's died but for now it was okay.
the blonde would never laugh at anyone because that was just rude and she was raised better than that. even her new family were teaching her new things and she had new rules but most were the same. be respectful. she couldn't help but laugh at the pruning thing and then the old lady comment. "my nana was a pretty badass old lady," she said, just because it was true. her nana was pretty damn badass. she never let things get to her and she didn't let old age bring her down, she was always up and moving and outside doing outdorsey things. plus she was taking care of a pretty young child and raising her. and as a kid, lisa was off the walls crazy. always on the go and getting into things. her nana had to be badass to take care of her. "well i'm sure you'll be badass as an old lady." this was the most lisa had talked in some time and it was nice to run into someone here and be able to converse and not feel bad for doing so. her sister was in jail and even if she wasn't, well stella was a stranger still so everything would be okay. just as long as lisa didn't get too close.
"well thats good..i kind of wish i knew how to swim." yeah she was eighteen years old and she had no damn clue how to swim. she could keep her body up above the water, mostly because she was tall enough to stand in most of the pool. when she said she was zen today, lisa kind of laughed a bit. "well we can be zen together?" what had gotten into her? she was never this friendly and talkative but she was tired of being so alone and with no one to talk to but ray and alice. life got really boring.
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Post by stella marie brexton-sans on Jan 21, 2012 14:17:22 GMT -5
spring to l i f e when some people saw their reflections in the mirror they never saw what other people saw and they critiqued themselves to a point of insanity. then they thought of all the shit that would make someone laugh at them or judge them. it was really kind of sad how society was these days. if larissa told stella she didn’t think she was pretty well that was what she would have kind of pondered on. another youth having trouble with their appearance. teens were most often known to change their appearance over and over again because they weren’t totally happy and trying to identify themselves, but well they didn’t have to be so pessimistic doing so! stella didn’t exactly think she was pretty either, but she didn’t go about tearing herself apart over it. she was blessed to be on earth in her opinion her daddies wanted her and well, summer carried her! not many people would do that for others who were well i guess you could say not capable of having children themselves. she loved her daddies though and her mommy and well the genetic makeup was of dad and her mama summer. they weren’t bad looking people she just wasn’t over flowing with beauty like she saw larissa to be doing.
the story of larissa was still a mystery, but well stella would spend time trying to get to know her and figure out her story. she’d find out that larissa didn’t talk much but would find comfort in the fact that she talked to her. it would make her feel kind of special! stella liked being special in someone’s life because well sadie made her feel special all her life and she liked the attention sometimes, but wasn’t an attention whore or anything of the sort. the other blonde looked relaxed which was good and it well made stella smile. the water was so smooth because people weren’t in here jumping about! it was great...it was so quiet and she liked it well not complete quiet, but she liked talking to her new...friend?
stella would not laugh at someone either, unless it was sadie being crazy sadie lady. yeah, now that was funny stuff and she coudln’t help but laugh at her. it wasn’t about her being disrepsectful though and she knew well sadie knew that she loved her. she again laughed with larissa. ”nana’s are badasses?” she said with a girn. ”what was your nana like or is she like?” she said assuming was meant that she wasn’t with her anymore but she didn’t want to well make a mistake and say the wrong thing so she went with both options. she wanted to know what made her nana a badass. both her grandmas were cool and then she had a step grandma or a grandma in law if that made sense because summer didn’t talk to her mama still so clydes mommy was her grandma?”thanks its a goal” she said giggling a little but it was nice of larissa to say she’d be a badass old lady! she sure hoped so...
”you don’t know how to swim?” she asked kind of surprised because well she didn’t know too many people that couldn’t swim. going to the pool and not knowing would be scary if there wasn’t a guard on duty. ”i can show you sometime if you’d like” she said smiling at her sweetly. she would too and she’d make it pretty simple and it could be fun? ”we can be zen together” she clarified nodding at her.
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