spring to life [larissa]

[larissa katherine alvey]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] larissa alvey sometimes i feel i've got to run away - - - - - - - - - - - - - - larissa's constant hair dying had nothing to do with her dislike of it, if anything it was the one part of her she actually enjoyed. her hatred of her body was slightly different then normal teenagers. just the fact that she was hardly called pretty as a child, made her only see the flaws in herself. she understood that she was in a way beautiful to some, but to herself she was not. then again it could be the fact that she saw her broken outside more than her formed gorgeous figure when she looked at herself. the scars and fresh cuts always stood out to her, like they were a neon sign screaming that she had problems, that she was a sad girl who only wished to be happy sometimes. though when she looked at other people, she saw gorgeousness that she could only dream about having. everyone around her was utterly and amazingly beautiful because she didn't see the flaws. she imagines that she is the only flawed one, even her sister alice isn't to her. even though she knows that alice cuts, its not like with her. she's different, alice is different then her. she's somehow better in larissa's eyes. sometimes the blonde wished things could be different, so she could be happy for her family. to smile and talk and just be the sweet loving girl she had been before. the girl cares and loves her family but she just wished she could be the happy go lucky girl she used to be. the one who smiled and laughed and got close to people because she had no worries. the most worry she used to have was if the girl she liked thought she was cute or how to tell her parents she was a lesbian. now? she had to worry about getting close to people, about her sister somehow getting out of prison and coming after the people she cared about once again. it was a scary thought and one that was always crossing her mind. surprise kind of hit the girl, she wasn't used to people caring about things that didn't have to do with them. but the fact that she wondered what her nana was like, made her smile. "my nana was amazing. she raised me until i was six and i don't remember a lot of her but the parts i do remember is. well we used to garden and go for walks and garden and cook together." she smiled softly and just wondered for awhile why her sister would kill her nana. she would have been happy if she just had her grandmother to take care of her throughout her whole life. if she wasn't constantly being switched through adoptions and families who all ended up dying. everyone she cared about "everyone can reach there goals if they tried," she said with a smile, it was the truth and something she hoped was true. if she tired hard enough then she can follow through with her goals too. she could stop that constant worry that bothered her. "nope. i was never really taught. and um..my first adopted family never took the time to teach me. they had some other kids and were usually busy with them," she shrugged like it was no big deal. she wasn't one to care that people knew she was adopted twice and her family was dead. she just didn't tel them the hows or about tanya. those were her own secrets, only sasha knew about tanya and that really wasn't larissa's choice. it was kind of known when a teenage girl dies, its all over the local news and papers. she was lisa's first love and she missed the girl but she had to move on. just that hadn't happened yet. "that'd be nice," she said honestly and with a nod. zen...that was nice. though she had never been 'zen' with someone or even referred to her state of peace and happiness as zen but it was an interesting way to put things. STELLA. 679. OUTFIT.so are you(; TEMPLATE BY OH SO COOPERNATURAL ! @ CAUTION.

[stella marie brexton-sans]

spring to

l i f e

maybe, sometime, stella would have larissa dye her hair or something because honestly really looking at it. she thought she saw some streaks in there and it was really pretty and it made her kind of smile, because some people had all the luck when they did their hair or well got blessed with a beautiful body of it. hers was thin and kind of just wavy and plain. she kind of wanted more life to it and it could be a fun thing. in fact, some people got blessed with a body as well. she wasn’t perving in on larissa, but she couldn’t help but not that the girl wasn’t exactly...what was the word. flat! there..yeah that was it she had nice flattering curves and there went the thoughts about wishing she had a body like that to kind of play with..well she did but. stella bit her lip instantly cursing cody and summer for their genetics. cody was a closeted kind of sexual being. yeah, no one knew but apparently cody wore the pants out of isaac and cody’s marriage..well when he really wanted to. which was a disturbing thought she wished her mother never shared with her! though if she saw the scars and cuts well...stella wouldn’t touch her in a rough manner ever she may come to cuddle lisa and kiss them and try and help her to quit inflicting pain on herself, because coming to get to know her stella would find her to be a beautiful person inside and out.

right now, all the baggage and stuff that came with lisa well all the baggage she carried on her was well hidden to stella. she seemed completely and totally sweet a little quiet, but sometimes people were quiet when they first met other people! she understood that much! in her history stella had been known to be kind of shy and well not talk to many people other than sadie either, but she was trying to make more friends sort of when she wasn’t partying in her room in a nice novel. she preferred a good mystery. one that kept her on her toes! yeah, okay so that was pry weird, but stella owned it really well. right now though she was partying in the warmth of the pool in her head! not in a dirty matter she just really enjoyed the water about her body it felt like a party in here and she didn’t want to get out because the air would totally be a buzz kill plus lisa was partying with her too. she just well didn’t know it!

the smile was cute yet again and well it was like a chain reaction lisa would smile and then so would stella! it was pretty cute and she listened to her tell her about how her nana raised her and about walks, gardening, and cooking. it sounded pretty cute! she thought back to when she was six a little bit and she couldn’t place doing that stuff. ”sounds special” she admitted. ”and yes completely badass cooking and gardening...your nana really does fit the bill” she wasn’t being sarcastic her voice was sincere. ”what did you make? or plant do you remember?” she asked sweetly still much into the story. memories were a part of getting to know someone and well learning what they liked to plant or cook because it was a hobby was part of their person. it just spoke to stella in a way...or maybe again she was being a weirdo. ”im going to be a badass nerd” she said deciding to create a story or a vision of how she saw it. ”i’m going to go off to college maybe hopefully totally kick ass in my studies you know rock the books...own a harley davidson get a sleeve of symbolic stuff like the mona lisa and maybe the constitution...” she was kind of joking about that she was a big woos when it came to pain. ”yeah, everyone’s going to kind of turn when they see me..” she stuck a thumb up and winked. ”okay so pry only the book thing, but it sounded cool maybe for a minute?” she asked hoping she wasn’t alone on that.

”wow, i was under the impression...i guess i made an assumption” she said biting her lip. just because her daddy called her pollywag didn’t mean that everyone was in fact a good swimmer she just remembered lessons and.. ”sorry” she said biting her lip about the assumption. the other kids busy with them made stella kind of feel bad. that must have sucked! why did people adopt kids if they weren’t going to love and nurture them all equally. she again truly felt blessed for the life she was given. it may sound silly to some, but it was honest. she smiled when she said it would be nice for her to kind of teach her how to swim it would be nice, but she’d be glad to do it. it was kind of something in the pool someone should be conscious of how to do. ”it’ll be fun” she said knowing she would be the perfect person to do it. she didn’t want to toot her own horn, but she was really patient when it came to teaching people stuff. she had tutored some people here and there and got some good reviews. ”you’re not against the floaty movement are you?” she asked meaning floaties but trying to make it sound cool. ”cause i got a pair of duck ones...i mean for next time when i teach you they really help..” and they did kind of it released people’s panics, however stella wouuld be there to make sure nothing bad happened. stella had them just cause she thought they were cute, but lisa could have them to help her keep her zen in the pool.

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[autumn angel costello]