with whats written on my heart [maddie]

[dorian michael andrews]

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[madeline hope sanders]

there were three, count em three children,

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Madeline Hope Sanders was happy..well for the most part. Yeah, she was still a bit depressed from all the drama she was going through, but her and Tristan were happy, and the were helping each other get through everything. just like all couples should. she loved the boy, and to be honest, was absolutely happy she admitted her feelings to him. Sadly..only after she had taken his virginity. she felt horrible for that, and apologized plenty of times. and Tristan of course waved it off, because he loved her, and he was happy it was with her. Or so he had told her. She believed him, because it was Tristan, and Tristan wouldn't lie. She was however not fully happy, because of her best-friend. Yes, he was upset, and she knew it, because she knew Dori, and she knew how much he loved Warren. She was angry at Warren, and just wanted to punch him for this. But for Dori's sake, she would be helpful and supportive. Kind and caring. she needed to focus on Dori. which she was planning on doing. Buying him some flowers, ice-cream, everything someone needed for a good wallow session. No one could say it was just for girls. and it was a more healthy wallowing in her opinion. Better than drugs.

But as Maddie was gathering her things, the door flung opened and she gasped, her heart going a thousand miles. she still never trusted leaving the door unlocked. though her fears rushed away seconds after. When she saw her best friends face. And the alcohol in his hand. "Oh..Dori.." She whispered softly. when she saw the hurt in his face, it just made her want to cry. To see her happy always smiling friend sad, and pathetically drunk like this. she rushed over when he fell. "Dori!" she knelt down next to him and sighed. "Of course I love you, and a lot of people love you. You're not stupid, because it happens. Sure dating him might not have worked out, but it's a chance everyone takes in every single relationship." she smiled back at him and kissed his cheek before gabbing a pillow and pulling him up to sit against it. "I was gonna come see you sweaty-pie." She sighed and sat down next to him. "Now..I think you've had enough Jack and Daniels..because being drunk isn't the greatest way to get over someone." she kissed his cheek again and put her hand on the bottle. "I love you Dori..I'll do anything to see you smilin' again." She forced a smile.

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tags: Janet with Dori<3
notes: Sad dori is sad):
music: the tide by the spill canvas
credit: to the one and only gabby c:

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[dorian michael andrews]

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[madeline hope sanders]

there were three, count em three children,

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Maddie found those labels the school had, stupid and repulsive. No one should be labeled, that was for things you buy at stores! You don't buy people do you? Okay, so maybe there were SOME places that bought peoiple, but not legally! She shook her head on those who called others by labels. she prefered to call them by their rightful names, though, when she was pissed off at some stuck up bitch, she tended to wave around the whole. "Preppy spioiled little brat" sentance around. She didn't like that Claire girl..or whatever her face name was. She remembered them judging Warren, for being gay. For christ sake. If god made someone, he obviously made them the way they were, and if gay was what someone was, they were made that way by god! No one deserved to be judged by that, or t9old that they would burn in the fiery pits of hell. It was wrong. Maddie didn't particularly believe in a god. sure there was something, or many things up there. she did believe, that they would not want puny little humans judging others, hell they may not even care. Well..back to the point at hand. Maddie never liked those stupid cliques. She wasn't friendly with everyone, that was for sure. the small girl had a big heart, willing to help anyone she could, so yes, she was going to do what she could to help her friend. she didn;t mind it. uit made her happy to see others smiling. so she would help him.

the wiggle of the brows made her think of old Dori..not sad dori..even though he was drunk. It made her smile a bit, and well she was just by his side when he fell , because she didn;t want him hurt or anything, she wanted to make sure he was happy. She frowned and hugged the boy close and nodded. "I know you love him..and I know you dont care, but..sometimes other people can't handle it, and then they break apart. Maybe it was hard for him..or he felt like he;d mess up. It happens Dori..and it hurts, but then we need to make it better..we need to be happy...and before we can get happy we need to wallow and let loose all our feelings. In a HEALTHY way..which means no drugs, no rebounds. I'm going to help you dori." she smiled at him proudly as if she was some doctor. She nodded and giggled a little when he said she was the woman of his life. "Nope..I'm just a really loving friend who wants to help her friend." She took his hand and kissed it before taking the alchohol away and setting it farther away from them. she shook her head at her dear friend and sighed. "You need to be aware of it Dori...Its how you get over it..it's how you live on. blocking it oiut will not help anything. Trust me..I've tried blocking things out." she shook her head and sighed, pulling him close and resting his head on her shoulder. "I know hun..but it'll get better. If he was willing to give up a great guy like you..then he's not worth it lovely dori. you deserve better."

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outfit: here
tags: Janet with Dori<3
notes: Sad dori is sad):
music: the tide by the spill canvas
credit: to the one and only gabby c:

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[dorian michael andrews]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style,padding-left:16px; padding-top:0px; padding-right:0px; padding-bottom:0px; background-image:url(http://i51.tinypic.com/2nbr3oi.jpg) ] im so sick whats written on my heart, i will break - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Dorian, well Dorian knew he didn�t like the people that didn�t like him for his sexuality, but the others he tried to give a fair chance even if the was labeled. It wasn�t like he had a problem with being labeled a skater, because he did skate. It brought a lot of ease to his mind and well it made travel faster. Though going �hey skater� was probably the stupidest thing he could hear cross others lips. He had a name and it was a cool name and some people even called him Dori like the fish from finding nemo, but instead of just keep swimming his theme song would be just keep skating...though more recently he wasn�t one to be just keep skating on or even into this school and the stupid labels like he had before been okayish with. He was a heartbroken guy and he was even acting like a little boy about it. He promised himself a long time ago he wouldn�t fall in love and he betrayed himself and what happened? Warren up and left and now he was left beside himself and a drunk for the time being at least, but he did have Maddie who was a real sweetheart despite having her own pains to deal with he was sure. Everyone had some sort of pain and well Dorian would always be there for Maddie who proclaimed him her best friend and well he ran with it, because she seemed like a cool girl and she liked to skate. It turned out that she would be the bestest best friend he could possibly have. Plus her boyfriend was her roommate and he was really cool too so being around Maddie was like an every day thing that Dorian enjoyed. The hug made him feel warm and he even smiled a little bit through his drunken stupor and sad time...cry time to be exact. He just listened to Maddie�s words her voice was rather soothing to him because he knew she wasn�t going to leave him and that was the great thing about having a best friend like Maddie. �If I was straight and Tristan wasn�t so perfecct for you I�d marry you� he just said throwing that out there because her words made sense and he probably would and he wasn�t trying to confuse the girl, but it was just something he had to throw out there, but Tristan was perfect for her and he�d never wish to mess that up ever. �But drugs and hook ups make mini dori happy� he said with a laugh wiping his eyes the silly part of drunk dori randomly taking over for a bit. �I mean Warren eveeen though its his jobbb has pry fucked a hundred and four other guys by now and i�m not allowed eveeen one?� he pouted and he kind of just snuggled his head up to her shoulder. �not even if the penis is small?� he asked and a sniffle came out. Then the words help you dori stuck in his mind and he shut his eyes. �sorry� he whispered. �sorry i don�t know if i�m able to be helped...it may be pointless...never promise yourself something then break your own promise, because then you�re left like me� he said and...then he went back to listening. �You are a very loving friend I looove you lots, but I don�t know if I deserve better...� he said in a whisper. �I don�t know that I want better...i want to fly to his moms house and find him...� he said and gulped then it went silent. Dori was thinking of Warren a time where Warren would just come back...a chance he could have him again. Though he wasn�t trying to be mean to maddie she was being so nice and such a good best friend. �I love you� he whispered to her. MADDIE. THREE FORTY THREEOUTFIT

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