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[gabrielle florence valentino]

there was a lot of things to know about gabby and one was the fact that she was very much family oriented. her family meant everything to her and she called them at least once a day if not twice to tell them goodnight as well. she called her dad and then her mom. while talkign to her mom, she also spoke to her three brothers, older sister and darling nephew. so that was why she was in the bathroom after school because it was the quietest place and her plan was to go see a movie. there were some good one's out like the vow and she had to go see it! so she wasnt' sure if she'd be up for a phone call when she got home because she would be eating popcorn and kind of greesy gross food that will make her want to puke her guts out by the time she made it back. and so she'd take her meds and fall asleep before she could call and of course she had to talk to her mommy at least once!

one because she knew her mom would worry about her and two, well she loved her mother to death. but it was kind of early and she hoped her mom was off work by now and so she quickly dialed the very familiar number and held her phone to her ear before getting her mom's voicemail. "hi..mommy. um.i was going to see a movie but i guess..i'll talk to you later maybe." she quickly hung up because she could feel teh tears building up and she could hear her voice crack as she spoke adn she bit her lip. she never understood why she cried when her mom didn't answer. some part of her knew her mother loved her and was just busy but there was that part that kept yelling at her. 'she doesn't love you. she's busy with her other kids. your here because she doesn't love you.'

no..that wasn't true. was it? no it couldn't be. it was gabby's idea to come to riverside, not her mothers. her parents hated the idea actually and kind of wanted to kill her. or well they told her to call..but why wasn't she answering. 'she's at work,' she said to herself softly before the voice began to lie to her again. making the tears fall down her face faster and she locked herself in a stall and she could feel her stomach twist and she held her knees to her. the panic was rising as the voice kept telling her how much her mom hated her and that was why she didn't answer. it all made sense..the voice was right and gabby was just about to give up when the phone rang again. it was her mom. she quickly wiped at her face and flipped the phone open before telling her mother that she was seeing the vow. apparently her mother had to finish a bit before she could leave and she got her message and called back.

'see told you she didn't hate me,' she told her self with a smile, though there was still the part of her that didnt' believe it. she never fully believed herself but it was okay. she hung up after the i love yous and grabbed her bag. did she even feel up for the movie anymore? not really. she kind of wanted to crawl into her bed and sleep and eat and then feel like crap and sleep some more. "there goes my night," she said softly before opening the stall door to see someone and her eyes widened and she smiled. she wanted to duck down and leave but she couldn't. she didn't know why but this girl probably saw her puffy eyes that were red and irritated thanks tot he tears. she bit her lip and shuffled her feet. "uh..hi.."

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[janet marie travis]

janet travis, tended to kind of act like she didn’t really give two shits ninety-nine point nine percent of the time, but not in a negative way. sure she vented to some people sometimes, but most often times she kept stuff bottled up and preferred to be funny. she had one brother who wasn’t going here he was going to a public school because it was easier for him and he was doing alright, but sometimes he e-mailed her homework assignments and had them done for him. yeah, she was a nice person when it came to stuff like that, because she just wanted her brother to like not be so angry all the time and he got angry a lot. right now she was in the room she shared with gabby and clover neither which were here. she began to bounce a bounce ball off the wall and fetch it. today, was just so boring. she looked at her cell and there was three missed calls from home. she loved her mom but sometimes she went over board and she left voicemails that made her sad for leaving, but she wanted a change and as nerdy as it sounded she wanted a cool education. yeah, she used education and cool in the same sentence sometimes.

boredom however was setting in and when janet was bored it was never really a good thing. she did random crap or tried to anyways, but her roommates were too nice to pull pranks on so she decided maybe to just go out instead. what to wear? she went to her dresser and looked about not even knowing where the hell she was going, so she didn’t know what the hell to wear. her primary look was a sweatshirt and shorts, but she didn’t like going out with them, because she had ghost legs. it was such a dilemma sometimes. she finally settled on a pair of dark jeans, because she liked them best and she didn’t know what else she should pick out to wear. she picked out a nice-ish top and looked in the mirror. she decided face make up was needed she didn’t really like leaving without it if people were going to be in her midst. especially people she knew, because she just didn’t feel pretty sometimes and it gave her a boost? she applied eye shadow, eyeliner, face cream, and lip gloss and decided it was a go. she got her cell phone and her keys and put her glasses on because sometimes she liked wearing shades inside because she was weird like that. she locked up the room and she was off.

now where to stroll to? she could go outside...or no she really needed to pee. sometimes she forgot to kind of go before she left the well in this case room. she smirked seeing as she had the bouncy ball in her hand if someone she didn’t care about was in the bathroom and she saw them go into a stall she would pry throw the ball in there and laugh as they whined about how much a bouncy ball could actually hurt. those suckers did hurt to her and her brother use to throw them all in the hall and bounce them off the walls when there mom was outside...well when they were little anyways. she was relieved when she went into a bathroom and set toilet paper on the seat in the stall those other things always sucked and sunk on her and it was just bad and stupid. toilet paper worked though!

janet did her business and thought she heard a familiar voice when she came out the oh hi confirmed it. she smiled widely. ”gabby!” she said pointing and winking at her before washing her hands and taking a step closer to notice her eyes as she was looking at her feet. ”heya whats wrong? do i need to slap a bitch?” yeah, that was a pretty valid question right? she looked sad! she added the last part for a little comedy?

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[gabrielle florence valentino]

janet travis had kind of come to be one of gabby's best friends or really only friend here in boston. she missed florida, everything that was here was just so different. it was scary and annoying and the only thing that was the same was her blanket, pillowcase and of course frosty the snowman! she would carry him around with her everywhere if people wouldn't deem her childish. that would probably cause the poor girl to have a mental breakdown. no, so frosty wasn't here with her as she cried in the bathroom stall and she would just cuddle him when she got back to the room. that was where she was headed now, deciding a movie wasn't the best idea. no the young brunette was still very much sad from the phone issue that she wanted to stuff her mouth food and clutch frosty until she drifted to sleep.

if only it was two years ago and she was back home, and her grandma was still alive. her nana knew all the right things to say to her, to make her see the truth. grandma was always right. gabby would fall asleep on the couch and wake up to her nana and then they would talk and gabby would tell her about everything. the mean bullies, her older sister, her younger sister and so on. everything that bothered gabby, she was able to tell her nana and she'd make it better by repeating the same thing over and over again. sticks and stones may break your bones but words will never hurt you. and that saying had been gabby's security blanket when her nana left town for a bartending job or for whatever was out there for her this time.

but now her nana was gone and those words never crossed her mind again. every time she even heard those words in that same way, she would break down in tears and hold frosty close and bit his nose until the pain passed and she could fall asleep. the one thing that was worse than the words was the tears. people seeing the tears. she was usually okay with crying in front of her family, because they wouldn't judge her the way others did.but when they started to ask what was wrong and then get mad when she couldn't speak. her tongue always felt so big and swollen when she was panicking about something. but they only made it worse and now here was janet, her roommate. someone who didn't have to love her, standing there, why tears were evident in her eyes and all she could do was shake her head no.

no there was no reason to beat up someone, it was over now. she dealt with it and if anything, she only needed to beat up herself. the voice in her head, which was just herself telling herself how ugly and gross she was. she just called it 'the voice' because sometimes she wished it was a voice and not her, because then she could get better. but now? she wasn't so sure. she was broken forever. but she took a deep breath because she was gabby to janet, and to janet she needed to be the happy gabby that she showed the world. that was why a smile appeared on her lips and she kind of bit at her lip and rubbed her arm as she tried to think of something coherent to say and every time she opened her mouth nothing seemed to come out.

"its no..nothing," she finally managed, her voice breaking and she mentally beat herself up and so that was when she smiled brightly and went to the sink. quickly washing her hands and face she smiled at her new found friend and roommate. "i was just heading back to the room, but if you want to do something. we can?" she rubbed her arm again and dug her nails into her wrist as she waited patiently for janet to tell her no. she wanted to go to bed and she was hoping for a no, but if janet said sure, well gabby wouldn't know what to do. she was stuck between a rock and a hard place.

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[janet marie travis]

janet travis grew up in a rural area in a group of small towns being that she was only fifteen years old...well she had only been to los angeles with family of course it was not out on her own...so this was completely different to her the environment and everything it was nice having gabriella around to be a good friend or best friend really in the whole place. it was great it gave her a good feeling to make a good friend like gabby. a lot of people couldnt handle the person janet was she had to admit that she was weird, but at the same time most of the time the girls mind kind of entertained her but today in this big city she felt so trapped in the little room she shared swith clover arlington and grabriella valentino.

now she was venturing about in the halls and down to the bathroom with the dangers of the bouncy ball in her hands, but that was where she had found the girl that looked so out of her element. well not out of her element, but it wasn't the same happy gabby that janet normally saw, but maybe something beyond bad had really happened and gabby just didn't want to talk about it though she seemed like she was slowly becoming okay or somewhat forcing emotion. "it doesn't seem like nothing, but maybe just maybe i'll let it slide unless you need to talk, then you're not off the hook." she said throwing that out there, because she could be warm and comforting if need be and try to the fullest give advice even if she through in random funny cracks here and there.

janet felt like maybe the girl was trying to hide something for good reason and if she didn't want to speak well the brunette was not the type of girl that forced people to come out of hiding. glancing over gabby again she just smiled when she said they could go out and do something if she wanted. she wondered how sincere the suggestion was though, because she looked like she had been crying and when janet was crying she didn't like to go out and do stuff, but then again maybe it was for the better? her brother used to force her to kind go out and do stuff so that she wasn't locked away in her own little world twenty-four seven. though she kind of preferred it that way after awhile, but maybe just maybe gabby needed a little fun and excitement to cheer her up?

the situation if it wasn't too bad could turn all around with a little effort but what should they do. "okay, well if we were to go out hypothetically...we'll call it a roommate date...what is something gabby hasn't done in a long time that she wants to go out and do?" she asked curiously spinning the situation, because surely there had to be something someone always really wanted to do. hopefully the could find it in boston though, because that was the only trick...unless they could muster up some gas money and travel which would cause trouble so she wouldn't throw that suggestion out there, because she didn't need to get gabby into trouble.

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[gabrielle florence valentino]

gabby was used to the roar of the streets or the yelling of the neighbors next door to you because the walls are so thin. she moved so much and she was only fifteen, that she felt like a damn gypsy sometimes, but it meant that one more move wasn't so bad.except this would be the longest she'd ever stay away from her mom since the few months her older sister thought it'd be fun to lie and cause her dad to get paranoid and keep her away. yeah those five months were hell for gabby and caused a lot of pain and tears from the brunettes eyes. however, it was a time that got her back into her school, her friends and her books. so maybe it was a blessing in disguise? but it really didn't help her feeling of

those months was the most she cried in her life, even more than her grandmother died. her dad's mom and her own mom were her two favorite people in the world and she always looked up to them. so she lost one and then the other. even if she didn't permanently lose her mother, it was still painful to watch be told you cant see her anymore! she felt so abandoned and lost without her that summer. she did nothing but read and stay curled in her bed, or in listening to music and crying in the shower. there was a lot of pain that was caused by her older sister and yet...she still loved the older girl? how that made any sense, gabby would never understand but she did love her. audrianna could be a pain in her ass and could be a big bitch, there was still a part of gabby who just wanted an older sister who cared.

no..nothing really bad happened to gabby, just a big misunderstanding really. not that janet would know that, or know that she was very insecure about a lot of things. especially with trusting and abandonment which was the feelings that filled her mind and body when her mother didn't answer. that shipping her to boston was her way of getting rid of her and it made sense, until she called back and now she just felt like a bit idiot! and now her friends seen her in her worst state and she wanted to kill herself for allowing it to happen and she bit her lip and shook her head. "no i'm okay...really." what else was she supposed to say? 'im a cry baby and i was crying cause my mom was at work?' yeah..no that wasn't happening, so she'd find some good lie to spin if janet kept pushing her to speak.

the brunette girl didn't know what she needed right now? she knew what she wanted but usually that wasn't always the best thing for her. no, her parents just had to talk to her and distract her and she'd kind of forget why she was said before and, maybe going out with janet would cause her to be happy again? it wasn't like if she was upset or sad it lasted a million years or anything. actually gabby had pretty rapid mood swings at times and well now wouldn't really be any different than usual.

the question janet asked kind of took gabby off guard because usually she was the one who asked people what they wanted to do. she always feel weird picking things because she knew she would't make everyone happy and that'd just pain her, so she avoided making decisions whens he didn't know the right answer. "um i don't know?" okay, so it was a lame answer but it was all she really could think of? her head was spinning so much,she really didn't know what she would want to do. she didn't really like the clubs, yeah they could be fun but she always felt weird in them but if janet wanted to she would. movies wouldn't make really good roommate dates? and well she didn't know what janet liked so the question was hard to make a good answer to make the girl and herself happy, or mostly her roommate.

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